Please know that these things I share are not intended to garner sympathy, lay blame, nor hurt others, they are only a small part of my life. I have made peace with all of it, and I encourage others to do the same.
There are many, many more extraordinary and positive events that far outweigh the negatives. I have experienced so many beautiful things and wonderful people that I may not have noticed or appreciated had I not experienced these darker moments. Our dark times really are the catalyst for our biggest growth; should we choose to find appreciation for the reference of polarity they provide. This is a small part of my life and I would not trade a single day... for it has made me remember that I am a Warrior Woman. ~ In Love
TRANSMISSION RCVD 2:31pm 09/04/08 NZ
[The time has come to move forward, you have been waiting for something to move you ahead and it has arrived. This something was the belief in yourself and your abilities. This is new to you, as it was conditioned out of you at a very young age. This pattern has followed you throughout your life and you can see it if you look at the patterns taken previously in reference to choices made. These choices are what made you learn your lessons. These lessons were necessary as they made you able to help others who will be coming to you for this help, in healing themselves and reclaiming their own power. Being empathetic is only as good as the experience of being able to relate on a personal level. If you have not been there you cannot relate to another person, you cannot validate their experiences and bring them hope by example if you have not experienced these things personally. This is why the choices you have made in your life time were the correct choices for you at that time. This is why you must now see that you CAN trust in your choices, as you made the necessary sacrifice in your previous choices to experience what you would be doing on your path. In other words, you made the choice to experience these things first hand as to be able to feel the emotions attached to the lessons. This is not always the case with those dedicating their lives to helping others. Many supposed counselors out giving advice, have never gone without food, or felt the rage, unpredictability or paranoia of alcoholism, addiction or mental illness. They have not had to learn to read people out of necessity as a survival instinct. They have never been beaten, betrayed, drugged, raped, molested, belittled, brainwashed, nor had illness. They have never slept 10 in a room, never shared clothing, eaten out of a dumpster, nor lived in a tent or in a car. They have never suffered the loss of a child, never seen someone beaten to death, never had a gun pointed in their face. They have never felt the burning hate of racism or sexism. They have never had to find clothing that hid marks on their bodies, never had to clean up the aftermath of a bloody fight before someone saw it, or had to make up stories to cover for another. They have not heard the screaming of loved ones as they were beaten until they bled, or seen them dragged down main street by their hair and kicked in the middle of the street as people walked by turning a blind eye. They have not taken a beating for someone else, or screamed out in agony, or looked into the eyes of someone charging at them; fist raised - in a rage. They have not had to break up fights between loved ones, or had to pull one’s hands off the other's throat while his face turned blue and his eyes rolled back; fearing he wouldn’t come back this time. They have not had to repeatedly heal a loved one who was self destructive. They have never been chased on foot across the neighborhood by a car scrambling over fences in back yards, screaming in fear. They have not feared for their lives, or the lives of those they love. They have not seen their pets shot and killed in a drunken rage, or beaten to death at the hands of someone who says they love you. They’ve not screamed from the back seat in terror, hearing their loving friend yelping in pain as they were run over because they wouldn’t move out of the driveway. They have not watched relationships form and self destruct into murder-suicide, nor experienced friends die of overdose or senselessly kill themselves. They have not had to let go of all of the habits and issues that stem from these experiences. They have not had to RELEARN how to live a healthy lifestyle. They have not had to face all of their demons, fears, and memories. They have not had to repair their thinking, or reflect on every choice made; to be sure it was correct. They have not been labeled, medicated, nor doubted their own sanity. They have not felt a panic attack coming, or sat in one spot for 8 hours why their body shook uncontrollably and their mind was numb, feeling trapped in their own bodies. They have not screamed out in agony to God and said; “Please just end it all, I don’t want to feel anymore.” They have not overcome and placed all of these events in perspective. They have not looked into the hissing mass of darkness fueling someone in an altered state and made it dissipate with a sound -knowing it was not of this world. They have not taken the time to grow spiritually so as to learn why these things happened. They have not dedicated their lives to changing the cycles and raising healthy loving humans. They have not forgiven themselves or others. They have not given away all their possessions to be sure they were still humble. You have learned firsthand; forgiveness, compassion, kindness, faith, peace, integrity, honor, strength, love, loss, suffering, commitment, and dedication… to name a few. These things make you qualified to help others, regardless of the missing letters behind your name. Society has got it backwards, these EXPERIENCES are what make you qualified to give advice to people on how to heal themselves, not words written in books taught in a classroom by someone who has not experienced life… and made peace with it all. - Adonai Sister - Pila'at]
This is one of many transmissions I received over a three year period, which I have recorded. They assured me I would know when the time was right to share them, I feel this time is now. I will be adding my Transmissions page shortly, so check back for updates my awesome people.
Much love and Ciao for now - M